Friday, August 24, 2007

Tsar Nicholas II and the Fairy Tale

Well it looks like the fairy tale ending that the romantic side of me wish for will not happen for Tsar Nicholas II.

I always held out some hope that one of the members of the Tsar's family made it out alive on that dreadful night of July 17, 1918. When I was younger I always hoped that it was Anastasia, I knew it was crazy but I had hoped and of course we all know the DNA testing showed that Anna Anderson wasn't the Grand Duchess. Then when I got older I heard about the rumor that floated around the Soviet Union saying that Alexei survived that night. I knew that was a long shot with knowing what the photo of the cellar room looked like after that night. I have known in my head that there was no way a 13 year old with hemophilia could survive what happened that night. In my heart
there was another different story. I am an optimist and I like the fairy tale ends for stories.

When they found they found the original set of bone on April 19, 1998 it turns out that Alexi's bones were missing along with one of the Grand Duchess. (They had trouble figuring out which set of bones were which Grand Duchess since they were so close in age.) That let me hold out hope that there still could be a fairy tale ending to the story of Tsar Nicholas II.

Well today there was an announcement they found more bones and it looks like belong to Alexi and the missing Grand Duchess. I am glad that the door can be closed on this part of Russian history, but I am sad that I am no longer going to be able to wish for my Fairy Tale ending to the story of Tsar Nicholas II and his family.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

A call from horse camp

I just got a call from Horse Girl's horse camp. The councilor who is in charge at the barn called to tell me that she is sorry Horse Girl had such a hard day yesterday and that this group of girls aren't meshing as well as some of the other groups she has dealt with. There were some that were picking on other so badly this morning that they made them all sit down and talk about how you are suppose to treat people and things like that. So I might have called, but seems like they were going to have this meeting with the kids no matter what so it really turns out that it wasn't just Horse Girl having problems and all seems good now.

What annimal am I?

You're an Oyster!

You don't have a ton of complexity or identity on your own, so you've
made an effort to focus on making a nice and sturdy house. It gives you the
appearance of being interesting as well as a good place to hide from your critics
and those who might expose your secrets. At least you can remind us all of what
humble beginnings we've all come from. People associate you with really good

Take the Animal Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


When I was a kid my parents just did what the teachers told them to do with regards to my learning differences. They never did anything more then that. When they were told that the gifted and talented teacher didn't want me in his class because I had learning disabilities, my parents didn't stand up for me then. If you ask them it was because the gifted and talented teacher hit some students and they didn't want the teacher teaching me because of that. In my mind that means you don't want that teacher teaching anyone and then you should work to get rid of that teacher. Then see about getting your LD kid in the gifted and talented program because she qualified for it, but that isn't what they thought they should do. The funny thing is a few years later my brother was in the gifted and talented program....hmmm double standard maybe?

Any how I am telling you this because my view of sticking up for my kids might be a little warped because what I grew up with.

Today when I picked up Horse Girl at the bus stop from Horse Camp, she told me she was being picked on because of how she speaks. I talked to her the whole walk home and when we got home I called the camp to tell them what was going on. They said they would look into it and find out what they can and call me tomorrow. Horse Girl heard that I called them and she got angry with me because she wants to be like everyone else. Well that just nearly killed me. I totally understand just wanting to be like everyone else when it is clear my brain works differently then everyone else. Being different is something that I have had to deal with all my life and it has taken me most of my life to realize it is ok that my brain works differently then other people.

Maybe I overreacted calling the camp, but it isn't like they are going to announce that someone said that Horse Girl is being teased and her mom called about it. How am I suppose to know what is within the normal for a reaction to something like this. Maybe I need to realize sometimes Horse Girl will be upset with me doing what is what I view is right.