I am a woman who was diganoused with learning disablities when I was 5 or 6 years old. I was diagnosed with dyslexia and dysgraphia. Having been born into a family of writers it makes me a bit of a Squib...a non-writer born into a writing family. (Aplogies to J.K. Rowling.) Three decades after my daignoses I am married and raising two girls, my youngest has learning differances. Because of my lack of writing skills you will come across choppy grammer and poorly spelled word. Just cope.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
My inner 16 year old
I have been realizing over the last few weeks that I really view myself not at 30-something years old, but as 16. I am always suprised when I realize that I am not 16. I am not sure why I feel this way. Could be that the women in my family love to be 100+ and 30-something is a drop in the bucket. It could be because I was in an abusive relationship when I was 18 and that has colored all the rest of my life and when I was 16 life was good. When I was 16 I could drive, I listened to loud music, I went swimming several times a day, I had a job that paid a bit, but not enough for me to live off of, I was in a relationship with a guy I liked a lot.....hmmm...sounds a bit like my life now. ;-) I wonder how old other people view their interal self and why. I know the Fly Guy views himself as an old guy. When I met him when I was 19, he was an old guy in a young guy's body and now his body is finally catching up with his interal self. I wonder if it is easier to have your inner self be older or younger then your real age. I know it is hard to me to reconsile the way I feel and the way my body looks, so that is hard to deal with sometime, but I guess that is life. :-)
My mother claims that I was born as a 30-year-old. She's probably right. :) That's about how old I feel, which might explain why I'm dreading 40.
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